Blessing in disguise??

Well...while walking on my trusty old treadmill this morning...something occurred to me. About my job (or former job)...Even though it (the job) was a PITA, I was really devestated to have been laid off. For nearly two years, I put my heart and soul into that job...creating the entire Atmos system, not to mention...helping Nolan with the Xcel and Colorado Natural Gas invoices/billing. Yeah...it was just your basic clerk work, but I think for me the satisfaction came from creating a "system" of logging, tracking and billing all the Atmos work...making something where there once was "nothing", kwim? That along with the relationships that were created with the Superintendents and foreman (and some laborers too)...I did my best to make everyone feel at ease since they were working with the boss's wife...so other than that one person at the office, it was all good. So, losing all that (not to mention the income) left me in a "funk" for sure.

I'm constantly telling others to "change the way you look at things and the things you look at will change..." yet, I was failing to follow my own advice, until today. As I was walking along, I was thinking about my workouts and finally beginning to see a "change" and how great I was feeling about that...when I realized that if I were still working, no way would I have time or energy to put in 4 miles a day. Not to say it would be impossible, but it would have been very difficult. While I could work on invoices and such during the evening hours, I was basically "on call" all day long...if Tim or Nolan or anyone from the office needed something, I had to stop what I was doing to take care of it, kwim? So having lost my job has actually helped me gain the time and energy to work on, well...ME! I have sacrificed and put everyone else's needs before my own for decades now...well, now it's my turn to invest a little time (and distance LOL) on myself.

Along with all that, I also realized that I would have never been able to "quit" this job...I couldn't have just walked away from my husband (boss) and left him and Tim in a pickle...so in a sense, I was really trapped in that job...but having been laid off is kind of my "out" to pursue other things (such as my fitness stuff and going back to school this fall). Having not held a job since 1993, the experience I got was invaluable (just in case I need to get an emergency job) and the extra income really saved us when gasoline was soooo high and we lucked out with Nolan's bonus and were able to pay off 30k in cc debt. So...at the time, the job was a blessing in more ways than one...but now I can see that not having the job is just as much the blessing (in disguise) LOL!